Picture was taken at Florida Airport| 2007
If I would have to pick a place where I teared up the most, airport would be it; while my bedroom comes close to second. Truth to be told, those are tears of joy and sadness that are twisted together in the most undefining manner. And so, I eventually develop a bittersweet feeling for airports. But one thing for sure, even as a kid and till at the present time, I still love seeing airplanes taking off. What seemingly as effortless and gracefulness is something that I marveled upon.
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Luckily I managed to board into the bus just in time. There were plenty of vacant seats available and almost spontaneously, I plopped myself onto a window seat. Looking around, most people were minding on their own business so quietly that their conversation seemed inaudible. But I felt my heart was beating so fast that it was going to pop!
The journey to airport seemed to be little longer than usual. I stared blankly on my reflection at the window. But as I was looking passed through the window, strings of thoughts and flashbacks came flooding to my mind. With “I started a joke” by Bee Gees playing on the background, I was then dwelled into my little own world. Fragments of my American archives and distant memories fluttered in a cobwebbed corner of my mind. Moments like these were so real that they put a choke up in my throat and sheen of moisture on my eyes.
Again, I reminded myself not to tear. Not in the bus.
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I tried to fight back my tears, but I failed miserably. As soon as Bonnie arrived at the terminal, I teared up. Almost immediately, I threw my arms around her and hugged her as tightly as I could! Tears were rolling down my cheeks. The more I tried to control, the harder it fell. For momentarily, her presence seemed almost so surreal!
I’m not quite sure how it feels like having to meet an old lover. But I guess it’s a whirlpool of emotions clashing all up together, and this pretty much sum it all up!
saying good bye to an old friend leaving to overseas?
Haha nope jin phern, my host parents from US came over to visit me :) They always made me a cry baby! Hee.